± H13.com - Visions, Madness, Dreams...
HomeAboutArchivesBestRandomnessStory
 
 
the way8:56am sunday, 29th march
dream the light that fills your day
seek the heart that knows the way
wire above your unspoken hopes
wrap your love in blank envelopes
we desired not the empty fate
of wattage light and daydream wait
fought for good as our courage wills
dreamed such a sky as sunlight spills
darkness fades as nightmare wakes
not one worthy does light forsake
to glow in victory and face that day
heart and deed to meet in the way

» comment on this entryread comments, (0) so far.

The MACHINE6:20pm monday, 23rd march
the MACHINE shall not stand, the MACHINE is fallen
it is being gutted as we speak
the claws of its harsh judgments bent faulty of their grasp
it ruled as a shadow made of iron
we were its face, whenever we turned our eyes cold
lived in the calculating argument
my lies are true, said the MACHINE
my judgments, too, even if your sensibilities miss my logic
i need you to kneel, to the god that makes the most money
you will turn my inevitable way—just sleep…
and we awake in senseless panic
or remain insensible as we follow the masses in circles
but such conclusions shall find cease in the greater logic
i have dreamed of so excellent a freedom
as the MACHINE begins to eat itself in this new world
monster, how many have been made disposable lies?
wretches both predator and prey?
to know now, that the tiniest breach begins your end
as you find futility was never your ally
for you could not kill the dream that held any hope
and all your hardness: your undoing is the soft
for all the hard rely on the soft to survive
you could not win. you never could have won.
for you cared nothing, and you fought against the heart

» comment on this entryread comments, (3) so far.

Hindsight9:49am sunday, 15th march
I have been watching a TV show, recently. I mean, a TV series, scripted. I never liked “reality” shows and the last show I watched religiously was The Simpsons. In fact, I watched that for like the longest time, ever since they came on the air, and from then until last season I had seen every single episode, most 5 times or more. Yeah, I finally burned out on them, but man, that was a long, fierce burn. Anyhow, the show I’ve been watching is called Hindsight, and it’s on VH1, about a woman from today time traveled back to 1995. And you know what? It might be because of the dates there. From about 1992-1996 were sort of “lost” years for me. When my mind exploded and I was left to pick up the pieces. The song I most related to back then? “Loser” by Beck. Really spoke to me. But I’ve been watching and seeing what I missed in that period. It’s comforting to see that things were going on while I was lost in my head. And maybe once or twice where I remember something that they mention. As if I had been there, too.
» comment on this entryread comments, (0) so far.

Bearings10:43am sunday, 8th march
I am beginning to feel capable again; I am “booting up” as it were, for that was taken from the phrase “pulling yourself up by the bootstraps”. Am I beginning yet again? Perhaps it might be better thought that I am rejoining a life that had been in progress, where I took a detour and was out of this world for a little while—but now coming back, assessing that that departure did not do as much damage as it could have. Yeah. I am beginning to get my bearings at my day job, which is good because they do pay me an awful lot of money as a technical lead. And my writing is coming along pretty good, too: it’s a new blog I’m at these days, all about the War in Heaven. So I’m writing a litte every day, just about. What else? I have to see about a way to find a girlfriend, if not a wife. “Desperado, you ain’t gettin’ no younger,” as the Eagles say. So it goes.
» comment on this entryread comments, (1) so far.

to seek8:04am tuesday, 3rd march
i have not come to these woods a poor beggar
i have come to seek after magic
i have seen the vision of the mirror broken
and in the darkness, a flickering of hope
and they shouted, running away from nothing:
philip k. dick is dead! philip k. dick is dead!
need i so be brought to the brink of despair?
every time to mutter my constant "no"
that which is stuck such that my soul is ajar
shall not contend with my stubborn light
which i remember not where i lit it
which illuminates behind the show, my dreams
in the night i will die five hundred times
before i surrender the engine of my forgiveness
who is a man who has not been driven
past sanity's feeble clinging, on and beyond?
the curtain of my dreaming hints at this:
i must hold the flame while the rain comes
i know nothing else but to believe
i touched the magic, for it was inside me

» comment on this entryread comments, (1) so far.

Heh6:26pm friday, 20th february

I got this in the mail (yes, I’m a member):

Click above to get a larger version.

Yeah, that’s totally me.

» comment on this entryread comments, (0) so far.

Wall5:25am sunday, 15th february

This is one of my walls in my apartment:

Click above to get a larger version.

Two artworks with St. Michael in them, the center of our galaxy, Joan of Arc prominent on canvas, and other things.

» comment on this entryread comments, (4) so far.

Weariness6:03am sunday, 8th february
I’ve been having what I like to call a deep weariness of the soul. Sure, pushing myself hard at the day job could be a factor, but I’ve been feeling at least something like this ever since the events (or Event) of January 2013, the last month of the last Year of the Dragon. Right now I’ve been thinking I am surely now entered into the second half of this think called life. And right now my only solace seems to be in writing. I enter something of a meditative state whenever I go there, into the written word, sometimes even to think that Eternity or a dream flows through my fingertips and enters the waking world. I don’t know what it will take to shake me loose of the attachments that wear on my spirit, but I know I have to find it. One time I took a screenshot of the lock screen of my iPad, and I looked below, where the glow passes through the words, “Slide to unlock”, and the light was just so that what seemed to be highlighted was “de to ur”: detour. Make of it what you will, I will take it as a sign: it is better to hope and to be wrong.
» comment on this entryread comments, (1) so far.

dissolve9:34am sunday, 1st february
with a penny and a matchstick
i will macgyver a way to mend a broken heart
as i wait to walk free of this world
on imaginary feet dissolving in low frequency buzz
at the center of the circle room
the universe only exists on the outside of its wall
strange sigils cut into my arm
to reveal the light underneath my porous skin
o to be a butterfly, who knows little
of what it means, his imprisonment or freedom
that the great truths slide on
finding no receptor grand enough to bind to
or is it better to understand?
even the lost comprehend enough to want more...

i am a man from the wilderness
hairy and gruff, with eyes in the mystic woods
proclaiming, “burn with love!"
as the demons carved in soap bubble blindly
as snow falls endlessly at random
here at the beginning of all things, have you heard?
all of us everywhere are forgiven
just love it all as you dissolve into the eternal void

» comment on this entryread comments, (0) so far.

Under My Monitor4:43am tuesday, 27th january

This is what it looks like at the bottom of my monitor:

Click above to get a larger version.

There’s two Tribute Pennies, Disney World commemorative (1991), fossils, a meteorite, etc. etc., and it’s almost always 77.7°. Hm.

» comment on this entryread comments, (3) so far.

The MACHINE2:26am tuesday, 20th january
The MACHINE is a remnant of the Age of Iron, which has ended and is ending and will end. It is a face of Death, which is the Antichrist, who is the Son of Satan. It manifests most notably in human beings. You have seen it at work. Whenever one follows the rules without compassion for one’s fellow human being, when one does that, it is the MACHINE taking hold. That is its cold side. Its hot side is to resort to senseless violence. Sometimes the two go hand in hand, violence applied to enforce rules, feeding death at the expense of life. To fight against the machine is notoriously difficult; it is a narrow way. If you counter violence with violence, the MACHINE is halfway manifest in you. If you fight with cold logic, one could say the same of that.

The MACHINE is not alive, but surrounds itself with life to shield it from anything that would lead to its demise, or any dimishing of its power. It is perverse like that: pawns of life being used as shield for the king of death. There is no reasoning with it. But it may be defeated. It involves turning a zero sum game into a positive sum gain. Watch Christ fight it: when being nailed to the cross, he says, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Thus, what we need to combat the MACHINE: Logos, or holy Reason. Pray for the one who refused you service because of the rules. Forgive them without having received an apology, as if you had. Turn the other cheek. In all things, act with love.

It is not really proper to ask, “What would Jesus do?” He has an authority which is not of human beings. Instead, ask if a saint would do it. Everyone understands it and is a little disappointed that that is better than the Jesus question on what you should do. Because what a saint puts up with are all the mundane little annoying things, with a smile. That’s often harder, less glamor. Fighting the MACHINE is not some swordfight with flaming swords at the gates of paradise. It is, little by little, to make the world a better place. Hate cannot defeat hate. Risk something in order to show compassion, against the rules. Put yourself in harm’s way to protect the weak. Fear not: we have always already won. Fill up your own life with the telling of how exactly we did so.

» comment on this entryread comments, (1) so far.

^ Top of Page

Steal Me:


Archives
august 2001
september 2001
october 2001
november 2001
december 2001
january 2002
february 2002
march 2002
april 2002
may 2002
june 2002
july 2002
august 2002
september 2002
october 2002
november 2002
december 2002
january 2003
february 2003
march 2003
april 2003
may 2003
june 2003
july 2003
august 2003
september 2003
october 2003
november 2003
december 2003
january 2004
february 2004
march 2004
april 2004
may 2004
june 2004
july 2004
september 2004
october 2004
november 2004
december 2004
january 2005
february 2005
march 2005
april 2005
may 2005
june 2005
july 2005
august 2005
september 2005
october 2005
november 2005
december 2005
january 2006
february 2006
march 2006
april 2006
may 2006
june 2006
july 2006
august 2006
september 2006
october 2006
november 2006
december 2006
january 2007
february 2007
march 2007
april 2007
may 2007
june 2007
july 2007
august 2007
september 2007
october 2007
december 2007
january 2008
february 2008
march 2008
april 2008
july 2008
august 2008
september 2008
october 2008
december 2008
january 2009
february 2009
march 2009
april 2009
may 2009
june 2009
august 2009
september 2009
october 2009
november 2009
december 2009
january 2010
february 2010
march 2010
may 2010
june 2010
july 2010
august 2010
september 2010
october 2010
january 2011
february 2011
march 2011
may 2011
june 2011
july 2011
august 2011
october 2011
november 2011
december 2011
january 2012
february 2012
march 2012
june 2012
july 2012
august 2012
september 2012
october 2012
november 2012
december 2012
january 2013
february 2013
march 2013
april 2013
may 2013
june 2013
july 2013
august 2013
september 2013
october 2013
january 2014
february 2014
march 2014
april 2014
may 2014
june 2014
july 2014
august 2014
september 2014
october 2014
november 2014
december 2014
january 2015
february 2015
march 2015
 

© 2001-2012 H13.com. All Rights Reserved.